Been there done that. When my wife passed away unexpectedly about 5 yrs ago it hit me pretty hard. I came home from work and found her dead on the floor from a heart attack, I do still have that vision in my head at times but now I have control over it, not the other way around. As a preacher who was also a co-worker at the prison I worked at told me "No one but you can get you through this, not god, not friends, not family, just you." He was right. I looked in the mirror one day and told myself that yes she is dead but you are not, now act like it. One thing I did that really helped was I got rid of all TV programming, don't let yourself get caught sitting in front of that damn TV screen. One thing I can say though even after almost 5 yrs is that it doesn't get easier, it just gets different.
