I totally understand. I put a lot of time in aquiring specialty woodworking tools, antique sports cars and various motorcycles, all on a budget that most on here would laugh at. Busted my butt. Now, I'm not enjoying the "stuff" much. Haven't worked a board in three years. Thinking of selling a lot of this stuff. I now dream of getting rid of all this stuff and touring the country on a bike, working the occasional job in the occasional place. But my wife needs me and my mom is not in great shape either. Still, I think about it sometimes....
