A human story...

I'm a musician. I am actively forming a performing band and could use another member... a guitar player who can sing. I have a few notices up here and there. Okay... well a couple o' weeks ago I get a call from a gal who says she can play and sing and that she's working on her Masters. "Can we meet?" she asks. "WOW!" I say "yes" and we arrange a time and day. When the day arrives she phones and asks to reschedule. "Okay." This time we arrange for me to pick her up (she has no transportation). It's a small town... I don't mind. What happens? No show. Bear with me, it get's interesting.

A couple o' days after the no show I get a knock on my door at around 9:00. It's her! This is the first time we meet. I ask her inside for a chat. Well, she proceeds to tell me she's an alcoholic, was on a binge drunk (that certainly explains things). We continue to talk... I switch to music. From her responses to music theory concepts I was throwing out I sense she's the real deal as a musician. She can't stay long so we arrange to get together in a couple o' days." People... I am a soft hearted person and I figure hey, she's been honest and shown courage to a perfect stranger... she talked about getting into rehab. I agree to another shot at it. That was today. I went to pick her up as arranged... no show! I go home and about an hour later get a call... it's her. She wants to walk up to audition. I agree. She arrives. She's been drinking (but not drunk). I explain I can't tolerate no-shows or drinking. I say we'll have to do this another day.

I care about this person. She's my daughter's age (30)...in other words, she could be my kid. She's got a problem. She's smart... probably a fantastic musician (if indeed she is working on her Masters). But such potential. There is a PERSON behind that problem. I agree to meet with her tomorrow for coffee. I have a really hard time turning away on this one. No need to lecture me... I've been around, and know ya can't save another person. Only she can save herself. But what if... what if just having someone there who cares, someone she can trust, someone who helps her help herself, helps? What it that makes a difference? What if?

Thanks for listening... this one's really hit me in the ol' heart chakra!


Live to love, love to live.