It took some guts to write this post which in turn shows you've got 'true grit.' This alone can lead to solutions and desired outcomes. Meanwhile things are very tough... I can only imagine what it feels like to be in your shoes. I trust things will change for the better and when they do, you will only be stronger. My thoughts, hopes and prayers go out to you, Di and family though this difficult time. Hang in there buddy... you're not alone.