The dream is definately not over! You're concentrating on the wrong dream. My identical twin brother Kevin and I belonged to a motorcycle club together. We enjoyed each minute we spent together especially riding and building custom bikes, which we did in our spare time.
I am the addict. I'm proud of my 19 years of sanity and thankful that my children have never seen me on the other side. Sadly, my brother took his own life 4 years ago and my life is forever changed. Join the club, have fun, Don't ever miss a ride with your brother... you never know...