Hey dude, I am not sure if I should chime in here or not. I lost my brother in 97 due to a drunk driver, he was riding to work over in De-soto Kansas, his luck decided to ride his bike that night instead of driving. Well was hit from behind by a guy who had just left the bar, he lived long enough to be put on life flight and died in route to the hospital.
Now I will say when I was younger, yes I drank and drove alot, way more then I ever should have.
After seeing what it does and living it myself, I quit completely for along time. Now I may have one or two in a year. Lose someone close and really makes you think about it.
If you need support, I am sure there are plenty of us on here who live close enough to give you a hand. Isnt that what a biker brotherhood is all about. Not to just gripe at you, but to offer support when you need it. Really think next time your out, do you really need that drink, believe me, just as fun to stay sober. Good luck and drop me a line if you need a friend.
