I am very sorry to hear that. The pain and loss of any family member is horrible and to be one so close the worst. I feel for you and hope you can find the strength to think of the happy times and get past the grieving. I am sure she would have wanted you to be happy. I know that doesn't mean much now but none the less true.There is nothing I or anyone can do to fix this or take the pain away.

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