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It is so great to see how many other people there are out there who understand and love their dogs (and other pets) like family as well. I have been talking with Wendy and the one silver lining is we will eventually bring love and joy to another dogs life and that dog to ours. Not as a replacement, as you all know there is never a replacement just a new and different member of the family. I won't be rushing into that as I need time to come to terms with her passing first.All I have been doing is talking to family and reading the kind things this family has had to say. It has been a great help for me to get my feelings out and cry away my pain. You have all had such wonderful thoughts and wishes
and many have brought a tear to my eye and helped me see the joy Harley brought to me and my family and we to her. Peanut has been sniffing Harleys bed and where she collapsed outside and I think she knows her playmate is gone now. I truly miss them chasing each other through the house. I had Peanut outside running loose playing with a big stick today and that brought a smile to my face for a bit. I miss how she used to gaurd and care for the twins, the silly way she cocked her head when I scratched that sweet spot on her neck and all the other little doggy things she did to bring joy and love to my heart. It will be a long time before I feel real happiness again. I am glad I have this release to be able to try and express my feelings and from the responses I see it hasn't fallen on deaf ears. I am slightly better today than yesterday and I am sure each day will get a little easier. It's the suddenness , and her young age that make it doubly hard to deal with.